Skinny me Pretty

I am a recovering anorexic who reached an all time low of 105 pounds as of december 2010. I attempted to get better, binged and gained a bunch of weight. Now, I am eating clean and attempting to beat this disease...but I still REFUSE to be fat. EVER. I just want to be healthy and happy.

Age: 23
Height: 5'10"
SW: 145
CW: 125
GW1: 130
GW2: 125
GW3: 120
UGW: 115-117

Day 1 Going Strong

Today sucked but at least it’s over now. I woke up this morning and had 1 cup no fat Greek yogurt. Snacked on spinach and sugarfree gum all day, had Starbucks decaf black coffee for lunch, and had egg whites with sugarfree syrup for dinner. Brought me to a total of 465 calories. My walk to and from work was about 7 miles, then I walked/jogged after dinner totaling 370 extra calories burned and 3.5 extra miles. I can’t wait for this fat to melt off. Repeat tomorrow.

Restricting

I feel so gross and bloated after visiting my parents these past few days. I feel a relapse coming on and I don’t care this time. I just want to slice this fat off until I’m skin, muscle and bone thin. I don’t normally fast when I restrict but it’s going to have to be drastic this time. Starting tomorrow it’s only spinach, water and egg whites until I can wrap my hand around the base of my arm/elbow again and the space between my thighs remains even when I jet my hips forward. When my hip bones begin to appear sharper, my thighs and calves shrink a couple inches, and my face looks sharper and contoured then that’s when I’ll slow down, and finally begin to be happy. My days of b/p are over, my ED began with me restricting so I know I have the power to do it again. I will.